Fear

I know, I know, I really do suck at this blogging thing! I had a strange feeling that I would! I have many pictures I would like to post and many stories to tell, but they will take more time than I have to tell or show. I have a teenager! She is a marvelous, wonderful child! I spend a LOT of time following her around with Will in tow, but she is worth it. She is a sweet girl and a good girl. We are on the precipice of change in my house and I am scared to death. Tonight she is in Ridgeland at a soccer game that she didn't get to play in, so I didn't go. (Shocking I know!) She has a new boyfriend, and this is the second one this year. I have spent the last 14 years caring for, protecting, nurturing, and loving this baby. How in the world do you let them go????? I know that God is there for me and I pray a great deal for guidance and peace. Of course, I forget and take the worry and fear with me when I am done. I do know better, but it just seems to be my way. I want my children to grow up and be responsible citizens of this world. I want them to be happy and productive. I know they have to make their own decisions and their own mistakes to learn from. (Not that she has made any, I'm just saying in general) I have spent a lot of energy and love trying to protect her from harm and heartache, but now I have to let her go and experience things without me. Of course, I am always here for her, I always will be... BUT, I will let her grow in new ways and learn new things on her own too. No matter how much it breaks my heart. If you read this, please say a little prayer for me and my babies, and all children who are on the edge of adulthood. I pray for her safety, her happiness, and her ability to make good decisions. I know she has up until now, and I am so very thankful for this child who has been nothing but a blessing to me. She is never ugly, never talks back, and is always loving and respectful. She is always smiling, giggling, and just a happy person. I certainly don't deserve such a wonderful child, but God did bless me exceedingly, abundantly with this one. I pray that His blessings for her are the same.

"Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it. "
Proverbs 22:6

"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

Where does time go?

Wow, it has been a long time that you have had to look at Jeff's rough looking face! Sorry! He is doing much better and I am good too. Nothing major wrong with either one of us! : ) I guess we will make it a few more years. Things have been really busy with the Holidays and working. Although I have had two weeks off, I have had a very busy time off. Filled with celebrations, cooking, cleaning, organizing, etc. Not that I feel very organized. I feel more behind than ever actually. Back to work on Monday! That will be tough! I am a night owl and could stay up til morning and sleep all day. Apparently my kids are like that too!

I will have pictures from Christmas up soon I hope! Since I have last blogged we have had a monumental snow, a birthday party for my sister, a trip to Starkville with my GNO's, Christmas celebrations to write about and New Years Eve! I spent two days undecorating for Christmas, and noticed today I forgot to take down the Santa Flag! Oh, well, life goes on! I am not the best blogger in the world, it falls into my cooking and cleaning category! I hope everyone had a blessed Christmas and I wish you only the BEST for the New Year! God's Blessings on you is my prayer! Back with more soon I promise! : )